hello sweets,
lately, i have been watching some old movies that my family and i used to watch when i was growing up. they are "the wilderness family" films and tonight i watched 'across the great divide.' now, i do realize that by the time you are old enough to watch it, this movie will be close to 45 years old! hopefully you won't mind watching it with me! (so far, i haven't even been able to get your dad interested in watching this one. i'll persuade him one day.) i won't force you to watch a lot of old movies, but i will definitely encourage you to watch just a few that are special to me. i cannot wait to share this past time with you one day! these movies are something that your pop-pop, grandma, and uncles all shared with your mommy when she was just a kid. i want to enhance your childhood with as much family history and as many inside family traditions as i can remember. i know you, your daddy, and i will create many of our own traditions and our own history as you grow up. hopefully, you'll want to remember and share them with your kids one day. however, that is a long ways away!
experiencing life. making memories. capturing moments. i hope that when you enter our lives, we provide you with a life that is exceptional. a life that is as joyous as possible. it is my prayer that your life will be beautiful and full of adventure. unfortunately, i cannot guarantee life will be simple. i cannot promise you that life will be without bumps and error. your daddy and i are imperfect. this world that we live in, is imperfect and most of the time, down right mean. there are a lot of things in life that i will want to guard you from. while i will do my best, please forgive my inability to protect you from things that will happen in life that i cannot necessarily fix.
i won't be able to save you from that broken heart when you break up with your first love. i will hold you when you cry and encourage you to the best of my ability. and remind you that no matter what, you are loved. i won't be able to keep away the sting that comes with experiencing the first death of a loved one. i will hold you and cry with you. i will pray with you and mourn and heal with you. i can't save you from your sins. i will pray for you every day. i will teach you all i know and be an example of the doctrines of grace. i can't keep you safe when you learn to drive and you take the car for the first time by yourself. i will teach you as best i can and prepare you the best i can.
my love, i know i say this often, but i want you to always know the truth. you will never have a lack of love surrounding you. you will never not be covered in prayer. you will never have to wonder if we will be there for you when life gets tough. we will do what we can to help you, as long as we can. because you are our child and we love you. you are apart of us. you are our blessing and heritage from God. we will do what we can to make life as fun, interesting, and special as possible. you have no idea, we long to experience life with you. whether it be exceptional events like travelling to thailand or london. or mundane, everyday type things like watching movies and eating popcorn. i want you to have as many awesome and memorable activities in your life. i want you to feel like your parents helped you and allowed you to live life to its fullest. i love you. come soon. its really difficult to have empty arms, especially with dreams as big as mine. its really hard to be patient.
love,
mommy.
cuddles and forts.
hello sweetness...
today i was thinking about some fun things you and i could do together. if you remember, i watch your cousins everyday. and everyday, i am getting lots of experience and ideas for fun crafts and games we can play. just the other day, your cousin carter and i were playing "hide from daddy". its a game where we hide under all the pillows and stay very quiet and wait till he comes to find us. when he pulls the pillows off, we yell BOO! or SURPRISE! its super fun and it definitely allows us to be full of giggles and silliness. another idea i had was... we can make forts. we can take the couch cushions, blankets, pillows, chairs, and whatever else we can find and put it all together to make a great big pillow fort. if we set it up right, we could even bring in a laptop or something, watch movies together inside and camp out! oh the endless ideas and experiences i can't wait to share with you!
so many things to do and try and play at! so much fun, it will be a blast. i also can't wait to have some very sweet cuddles with you. cuddles during movies, mornings, nighttime, when you're not feeling well, when you're sleepy, cuddles when you just need some extra love, when you're sad, when you're happy. cuddles are some of the most precious times you can spend with your mommy and daddy. and we cannot wait to experience all these things with you. i get a big smile on my face when i think about holding you, singing to you, reading you stories, relaxing and rubbing your back. you're already my precious love and i have yet to meet you. waiting for you gets increasingly more difficult, but i will continue to wait with arms and hands open. hands open to God, waiting for His timing, provision, and guidance. arms open, ready to embrace you at any moment, to hold you and kiss you and tell you that you're mine and i'll love you until the day i die. you're beautiful. you're precious. you're loved.
i love you.
love,
mommy.
today i was thinking about some fun things you and i could do together. if you remember, i watch your cousins everyday. and everyday, i am getting lots of experience and ideas for fun crafts and games we can play. just the other day, your cousin carter and i were playing "hide from daddy". its a game where we hide under all the pillows and stay very quiet and wait till he comes to find us. when he pulls the pillows off, we yell BOO! or SURPRISE! its super fun and it definitely allows us to be full of giggles and silliness. another idea i had was... we can make forts. we can take the couch cushions, blankets, pillows, chairs, and whatever else we can find and put it all together to make a great big pillow fort. if we set it up right, we could even bring in a laptop or something, watch movies together inside and camp out! oh the endless ideas and experiences i can't wait to share with you!
so many things to do and try and play at! so much fun, it will be a blast. i also can't wait to have some very sweet cuddles with you. cuddles during movies, mornings, nighttime, when you're not feeling well, when you're sleepy, cuddles when you just need some extra love, when you're sad, when you're happy. cuddles are some of the most precious times you can spend with your mommy and daddy. and we cannot wait to experience all these things with you. i get a big smile on my face when i think about holding you, singing to you, reading you stories, relaxing and rubbing your back. you're already my precious love and i have yet to meet you. waiting for you gets increasingly more difficult, but i will continue to wait with arms and hands open. hands open to God, waiting for His timing, provision, and guidance. arms open, ready to embrace you at any moment, to hold you and kiss you and tell you that you're mine and i'll love you until the day i die. you're beautiful. you're precious. you're loved.
i love you.
love,
mommy.
hope and dreams.
hello my sweetness,
today was kind of busy. i got up kind of late (i have been so sleepy lately, i needed some extra sleep i guess) and then did a bunch of dishes, put together a steam cleaner, watched some olympics (more on that in a minute), and trimmed back some bushes and trees that were impeding the walkway to our door. then later, daddy and i went to cracker barrel and had awesome food, made a quick visit to uncle bob & aunt donna's house and visited with them and the kids for a little while. it was fun. then we came home and i put a bunch of pictures up on facebook for friends to see. just kind of in one of those moods where i am very nostalgic and thinking of fun times that have passed. i have had some amazing times, let me tell you. there are a bunch of people i can't wait for you to meet one day. the people who are nearest and dearest to my heart are some pretty incredible people. they are all waiting to meet you too!
so the olympics. let me explain. the olympics is a 2 week event where the worlds best athletes, of all different kinds of sports, get together and compete for a gold medal and to be told that they are the best at whatever sport they do. the olympics are on every two years and alternate between winter and summer olympics. obviously, since its currently august, this years olympics are the summer olympics. during the summer olympics, they have lots of water sports, lots of running, biking, equestrian, gymnastics, and many many many more fun sports. my favorites are the swimming/diving events, gymnastics, and volleyball. i can't wait to show you all sorts of different sports. and let me say, if you ever aspire to become an olympian and have a real desire to become the best at a certain sport... regardless of the fact that neither your dad nor i are very athletic, you have our complete support. we would hold so much pride in our hearts to see you strive for greatness and whether you make it or not, you will and are always, apart of us and we love you. no matter what. you are in our hearts. even now, before you're conceived. i love you and daddy loves you so much. so that is what the olympics are.
so i rewatched a music video that explains my feelings about trying to have a baby (yes, mommy and daddy are not pregnant and really want to be. but for some reason, God has not decided to bless us with you yet. hopefully one day... although the waiting game is very, very, very difficult at times. trying to conceive is hard and a bit disheartening at times), and it reminded me that i needed to write to you. i think of you every day. you're always on my mind. i just forget to take time and write to you. i apologize for being so bad at it. i really just need to work it into my schedule, so i remember. anyway, i took a recent picture of your daddy and i. one day you'll see it and think... that is what you looked like? whoa! haha. :) sorry that its not great quality, but its us, in the moment.
we love you, sweet one(s). i'll write again soon.
love,
mommy.
a quickie reminder that i love you!
my sweet beloved little ones.
how i long to hold you in my arms even more today. the days go on and each day, my heart yearns to hold you a little bit more. you have no idea what you're in for... lots of love, kisses, hugs, cuddles, and again, SO MUCH LOVE!! you are a blessing to me already. your mommy dearest is off to bed, but she has started a regimen that will helpfully make her tummy a nice place for you to live, so maybe you'll show up sometime soon. i love you. this weekend, i'll write more!
love,
mommy.
how i long to hold you in my arms even more today. the days go on and each day, my heart yearns to hold you a little bit more. you have no idea what you're in for... lots of love, kisses, hugs, cuddles, and again, SO MUCH LOVE!! you are a blessing to me already. your mommy dearest is off to bed, but she has started a regimen that will helpfully make her tummy a nice place for you to live, so maybe you'll show up sometime soon. i love you. this weekend, i'll write more!
love,
mommy.
even mommy has homework...
'ello darlings,
lately your mommy has been busy doing school work. i've had the entire week off from watching your nephews because they took a trip to the beach! so after i got over my yucky sickness that i had, i hunkered down and did a lot of homework. i still have more and more and more, however, at least i'm still on track so far. i know there will be days when you get older that you'll hate doing homework and you may even hate doing school. while i completely understand, i never really liked school and i was never good at tests or homework, i'm thankful that i pushed through and that i'm trying to finish up some school, even now. i'm wishing i had gotten this stuff done before i got married, but alas, i was far too in love with your daddy and far too interested in traveling and moving around. maybe i should have been more patient or prioritized better, but i'm doing it now, and that's really all that matters. i do enjoy learning, i just wish i could learn more about things i'm a little more invested in.
school is so important. its important to have a good education and work hard. if you don't, life will be pretty difficult for you as you get older. there are some pretty essential things you need to know. like how to write, how to read, how to count, how to do math. its important to know all of those things, but its also important to have at least a running knowledge of history, science, home economics, and such. however, the most important thing to know about and have a continuing knowledge of, is God and His Gospel that is salvation by grace through faith, through Christ alone. it is important to study these things, to know and to cleave to the truths of Christ and His life and His sacrifice. i hope when you're older, i'll be able to teach you all these things. i know your daddy will be looking forward to teaching you all sorts of things about theology, doctrine, and all that. i know right now, it may seem like a lot, it may even be a little over your head (depending on when you read this), but daddy and i will make sure to start teaching you these things from when you're a baby.
doing school, learning to read, write, and all that, are essential and basic life skills. they are also important to your spiritual life too. it is important to read and study God's word, it is important to take His word and apply it to your life. and i will help you and show you how to do that. i look forward to talking to you about all these things. from the basic to the complicated, from the boring to the exciting. i will do my best to help you in all areas of study, whether it be history, english, (maybe even cantonese/mandarin), home economics, math (unless i do well in my upcoming math classes, this may prove difficult and we'll have to find a tutor for both of us), Bible study, or anything else you may want to learn. i want to be open and willing to help you in all things. i want to see you succeed. i want to see you go far in life, to do great and mighty things for the Lord. to see you grow into an amazing man/women. i love you and thinking about all these things excites me. you will do great things, no matter what it is that you do.
love,
mommy.
lately your mommy has been busy doing school work. i've had the entire week off from watching your nephews because they took a trip to the beach! so after i got over my yucky sickness that i had, i hunkered down and did a lot of homework. i still have more and more and more, however, at least i'm still on track so far. i know there will be days when you get older that you'll hate doing homework and you may even hate doing school. while i completely understand, i never really liked school and i was never good at tests or homework, i'm thankful that i pushed through and that i'm trying to finish up some school, even now. i'm wishing i had gotten this stuff done before i got married, but alas, i was far too in love with your daddy and far too interested in traveling and moving around. maybe i should have been more patient or prioritized better, but i'm doing it now, and that's really all that matters. i do enjoy learning, i just wish i could learn more about things i'm a little more invested in.
school is so important. its important to have a good education and work hard. if you don't, life will be pretty difficult for you as you get older. there are some pretty essential things you need to know. like how to write, how to read, how to count, how to do math. its important to know all of those things, but its also important to have at least a running knowledge of history, science, home economics, and such. however, the most important thing to know about and have a continuing knowledge of, is God and His Gospel that is salvation by grace through faith, through Christ alone. it is important to study these things, to know and to cleave to the truths of Christ and His life and His sacrifice. i hope when you're older, i'll be able to teach you all these things. i know your daddy will be looking forward to teaching you all sorts of things about theology, doctrine, and all that. i know right now, it may seem like a lot, it may even be a little over your head (depending on when you read this), but daddy and i will make sure to start teaching you these things from when you're a baby.
doing school, learning to read, write, and all that, are essential and basic life skills. they are also important to your spiritual life too. it is important to read and study God's word, it is important to take His word and apply it to your life. and i will help you and show you how to do that. i look forward to talking to you about all these things. from the basic to the complicated, from the boring to the exciting. i will do my best to help you in all areas of study, whether it be history, english, (maybe even cantonese/mandarin), home economics, math (unless i do well in my upcoming math classes, this may prove difficult and we'll have to find a tutor for both of us), Bible study, or anything else you may want to learn. i want to be open and willing to help you in all things. i want to see you succeed. i want to see you go far in life, to do great and mighty things for the Lord. to see you grow into an amazing man/women. i love you and thinking about all these things excites me. you will do great things, no matter what it is that you do.
love,
mommy.
mother's day thoughts and desires.
hello darlings,
your mommy dearest here has been thinking about you. mother's day just passed, and while you're not here, you were not far from my thoughts. my heart aches to hold you. my sweet friend, debbie, knows how badly i want you, so she gave me a sweet mother's day card and necklace. it was very sweet and definitely something i was needing. God is so wonderful to supply us with friends who are sensitive to these types of things. its a reminder that He is in control and that He understands our desires, our hearts, our minds. i cannot wait to tell you all about the Lord, our Father, our God. you may wonder, "mommy, who is God?" well, God is the one who made you and me, daddy, and everyone. He also made the trees, the water, the birds, and all animals. He is the one who created this whole earth, the whole universe, He is, was, and always will be.
lately, mommy has been going to the gym a lot. i'm trying to get my body in shape so that you will feel welcome to come and stay in my belly for a good ole... oh i dunno, 9 months, and then come out and feel welcome in my arms! just a little hint there, little ones. i love you. i must go for now. hope to meet you soon.
love,
mommy.
even the mundane.
hello sweeties.
in january, your cousin evan had his first birthday. and yesterday, we celebrated your cousin carter's birthday. both events were lovely and so much fun. i love to spend time with the family and see the boys have fun and play! its always a lovely time. unfortunately, these types of events make me miss you. these events are a reminder that time is continuing on and i still have yet to hold you in my arms. i'm getting older and your head has never laid upon my breast. (i know, MOOOOOM... don't talk about those kind of things.) i wonder what kind of birthday party you'd like to have. would you want a dinosaur party? a princess party? a disney party? whatever you choose, i'm sure it will be a great time. oh the fun things we get to experience together!
yesterday, our puppy dog, monster truck, fell off the dock and into the creek! it was so silly. she was chasing after silly old ducks and geese! you will love monster truck. she is so silly. full of fun and energy! we had to give her a bath when we got home, she smelled so yucky! maybe one day you'll help me give her a bath. she doesn't enjoy them very much, so i'd love to have some help from someone! daddy helped a little bit last night. but he can't always help. i look forward to being able to do things like that together. walking the dog, washing her, grocery shopping, going to the library, clothes shopping. the things that i find to be a little mundane will have a lot more meaning, because they will be experiences i get to have with you. oh i know, at some point, these things will lose their fun and will become mundane and such. however, i am excited nonetheless to spend time with you and do mundane things with you too! i love you. come soon. my arms are feeling very lonely lately.
love,
mommy.
in january, your cousin evan had his first birthday. and yesterday, we celebrated your cousin carter's birthday. both events were lovely and so much fun. i love to spend time with the family and see the boys have fun and play! its always a lovely time. unfortunately, these types of events make me miss you. these events are a reminder that time is continuing on and i still have yet to hold you in my arms. i'm getting older and your head has never laid upon my breast. (i know, MOOOOOM... don't talk about those kind of things.) i wonder what kind of birthday party you'd like to have. would you want a dinosaur party? a princess party? a disney party? whatever you choose, i'm sure it will be a great time. oh the fun things we get to experience together!
yesterday, our puppy dog, monster truck, fell off the dock and into the creek! it was so silly. she was chasing after silly old ducks and geese! you will love monster truck. she is so silly. full of fun and energy! we had to give her a bath when we got home, she smelled so yucky! maybe one day you'll help me give her a bath. she doesn't enjoy them very much, so i'd love to have some help from someone! daddy helped a little bit last night. but he can't always help. i look forward to being able to do things like that together. walking the dog, washing her, grocery shopping, going to the library, clothes shopping. the things that i find to be a little mundane will have a lot more meaning, because they will be experiences i get to have with you. oh i know, at some point, these things will lose their fun and will become mundane and such. however, i am excited nonetheless to spend time with you and do mundane things with you too! i love you. come soon. my arms are feeling very lonely lately.
love,
mommy.
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