hidden away...

over mountains and sky blue seas

on great circles will you watch for me

the sweetest feeling

i've got inside

i just can't wait to get lost in your eyes

and all these words

that you meant to say

held in silence

day after day

words of kindness

that our poor hearts crave

please don't keep them 

hidden away

sing it out

so i can finally breathe in

i can take in all you say

holding out for something i believe in

all i really need today

i want to free your heart

i want to see your heart

please don't keep your heart hidden away

you're a wonder

how bright you shine

flickered candle in a short lifetime

secret dreamer that never shows

if no one sees you than nobody knows

and all these words you were meant to say

held in silence day after day

words of kindness that our poor hearts crave

please don't keep them

hidden away

sing it out

so i can finally breathe in

i can take in all you say

reaching out for someone i believe in

all i really need today

i want to feel your love

will you reveal your love

please don't keep your love

hidden away

i want to free your heart

i want to see your heart

please don't keep your heart

hidden away

— josh groban "hidden away"

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my sweet darlings. how i love you day in and day out. i am thankful that i hold you in my heart, even if i can't hold you in my arms. the song above makes me think of life and what i think your arrival will be. it will be a freeing of my motherly desires. it will be an expression of amazing love and gratitude and glory and honor and praise to God for the gift of life. "you're a wonder, how bright you shine. flickered candle in a short lifetime" while you're still just a dream, i can look and ponder what life will be when you join me and your daddy. it will be as though God turned on every light in the house, turned on the fire and filled my heart with a warmth and joy that only He could provide through a special gift like you. i know it will be like something i've never been able to fully feel and experience. oh my loves, don't stay hidden away too long. i love you. the tears pouring down my face will one day turn from tears of longing to tears of joy. i look forward to that day.

love,
mommy.