doctors, doctors and...

hello my lovely ones. this won't be a long blog, as your old mom needs to get to bed. today was full of stuff that i needed to get done. you see, mommy's body is not very kind to her on a number of occasions. i have a bunch of different things that require attention more often than not, and thankfully to the help of your grandma johnson, your daddy and i were clued in on a program that would help mommy get some help! it helped daddy too! he got his sore tooth taken care of! hooray! so today, i went to see mommy's favorite doctor, dr. jett. she is a sweet lady who really does care about the needs of her patients. i told her my concerns and she jumped right into action. i gave some blood so she can see if a) you're actually IN my tummy... (unfortunately, i have a feeling you're still being a bit shy and that you are not there, not yet at least... but it'd be a wonderful surprise if you were!) b) if my body is doing what it needs to do so that you can have a safe and happy home in my tummy and c) to see if there is something wrong that causes mommy to not lose weight properly and such.

now that i've seen dr. jett, i have the a-okay to go to another doctor. this doctor will also help your mom get in the right shape so that you can be happy and healthy in my tummy until the day that you are ready to come out! i've never met this doctor, so i'll have to tell you what i think after i meet her. i'm hoping and praying that she is lovely like dr. jett. so next month is a big month of finding out answers and seeing where to go from here. i would love to hear from dr. jett that you are in my tummy, growing and ready to surprise me. but, i won't get my hopes up, because if i do and you're not ready to be in there, i will get very sad. i miss you and i haven't even met you yet! how is that possible? life is pretty crazy right now, but i know that God is going to get us through it all and He will remain glorified in our lives.

oh my lovies, i love you so much. i cannot wait to stroke your soft cheeks and kiss you softly as you sleep. to hold your little hands in mine and know that you are mine. i can't wait to hold you in my arms and praise God for giving me such a blessing, for being the ultimate provider of our hearts desires. never forget that God is in control. He loves us and knows our hearts, you don't have to fear. oh how i long for the day that i can tell you all about Jesus, to tell you the Gospel, to take you to sunday school and hear you tell me about all that you learned. i love you, my babies. even though you're not here, even though i don't know you yet, when you finally read this, i hope you know that i love you and have loved you since before you were born. and i'll always love you, no matter what. you are in my heart and God has graciously blessed me with you to love and cherish. i love you so much.

love,
mommy.