nerves and fear...

hello my sweetie,

today i woke with a start. i started to have some symptoms of possible complications that you may not stay with us. after speaking with the midwife and a few friends, i will be going in to hopefully see your little heartbeat on a sonogram and be checked over thoroughly. please stay with us my love. your daddy and i shed some tears today and have been praying. we also have several others praying that you stay safe and sound in this tummy of mine. please stay safe and sound... we love you so much and want to hold you and watch you grow into the amazing person we know you will be. we want to kiss you and hug you and snuggle with you. we cherish EVERY moment we have with you, even if you are going to be with Jesus right now, but i pray and plead - please stay with us. you are so loved by so many. you are so wanted and cared for, already by so many people. we eagerly wait for your arrival, please stick around. we love you!!!

God please be merciful and grant us our desire to have this child stay with us. we love this little one so much and want to cherish and experience the wonders of child birth and parenting. please, God if it is your will, please let our sweetie stay put and grow big and strong. we know that you work all things together for your glory and for the good of those who love you. we love you, God. please take our doubting hearts, our wicked hearts and give us faith to hold fast to your promises and stand firm in the grace and mercy that you have shown us thus far and will continue to show us every day of our lives. amen.

well - i can't wait to meet you one day. i love you so much. please stay put...

love,
mommy.

written 4.7.13