cuddles and forts.

hello sweetness...

today i was thinking about some fun things you and i could do together. if you remember, i watch your cousins everyday. and everyday, i am getting lots of experience and ideas for fun crafts and games we can play. just the other day, your cousin carter and i were playing "hide from daddy". its a game where we hide under all the pillows and stay very quiet and wait till he comes to find us. when he pulls the pillows off, we yell BOO! or SURPRISE! its super fun and it definitely allows us to be full of giggles and silliness. another idea i had was... we can make forts. we can take the couch cushions, blankets, pillows, chairs, and whatever else we can find and put it all together to make a great big pillow fort. if we set it up right, we could even bring in a laptop or something, watch movies together inside and camp out! oh the endless ideas and experiences i can't wait to share with you!

so many things to do and try and play at! so much fun, it will be a blast. i also can't wait to have some very sweet cuddles with you. cuddles during movies, mornings, nighttime, when you're not feeling well, when you're sleepy, cuddles when you just need some extra love, when you're sad, when you're happy. cuddles are some of the most precious times you can spend with your mommy and daddy. and we cannot wait to experience all these things with you. i get a big smile on my face when i think about holding you, singing to you, reading you stories, relaxing and rubbing your back. you're already my precious love and i have yet to meet you. waiting for you gets increasingly more difficult, but i will continue to wait with arms and hands open. hands open to God, waiting for His timing, provision, and guidance. arms open, ready to embrace you at any moment, to hold you and kiss you and tell you that you're mine and i'll love you until the day i die. you're beautiful. you're precious. you're loved.

i love you.

love,
mommy.

hope and dreams.

hello my sweetness,

today was kind of busy. i got up kind of late (i have been so sleepy lately, i needed some extra sleep i guess) and then did a bunch of dishes, put together a steam cleaner, watched some olympics (more on that in a minute), and trimmed back some bushes and trees that were impeding the walkway to our door. then later, daddy and i went to cracker barrel and had awesome food, made a quick visit to uncle bob & aunt donna's house and visited with them and the kids for a little while. it was fun. then we came home and i put a bunch of pictures up on facebook for friends to see. just kind of in one of those moods where i am very nostalgic and thinking of fun times that have passed. i have had some amazing times, let me tell you. there are a bunch of people i can't wait for you to meet one day. the people who are nearest and dearest to my heart are some pretty incredible people. they are all waiting to meet you too! 

so the olympics. let me explain. the olympics is a 2 week event where the worlds best athletes, of all different kinds of sports, get together and compete for a gold medal and to be told that they are the best at whatever sport they do. the olympics are on every two years and alternate between winter and summer olympics. obviously, since its currently august, this years olympics are the summer olympics. during the summer olympics, they have lots of water sports, lots of running, biking, equestrian, gymnastics, and many many many more fun sports. my favorites are the swimming/diving events, gymnastics, and volleyball. i can't wait to show you all sorts of different sports. and let me say, if you ever aspire to become an olympian and have a real desire to become the best at a certain sport... regardless of the fact that neither your dad nor i are very athletic, you have our complete support. we would hold so much pride in our hearts to see you strive for greatness and whether you make it or not, you will and are always, apart of us and we love you. no matter what. you are in our hearts. even now, before you're conceived. i love you and daddy loves you so much. so that is what the olympics are. 

so i rewatched a music video that explains my feelings about trying to have a baby (yes, mommy and daddy are not pregnant and really want to be. but for some reason, God has not decided to bless us with you yet. hopefully one day... although the waiting game is very, very, very difficult at times. trying to conceive is hard and a bit disheartening at times), and it reminded me that i needed to write to you. i think of you every day. you're always on my mind. i just forget to take time and write to you. i apologize for being so bad at it. i really just need to work it into my schedule, so i remember. anyway, i took a recent picture of your daddy and i. one day you'll see it and think... that is what you looked like? whoa! haha. :) sorry that its not great quality, but its us, in the moment. 

we love you, sweet one(s). i'll write again soon. 

love,

mommy.