where there is love, i'll be there.

hello my babies. oh how i am longing to hold you in my arms. seeing cute little babies at church today, talking to MaMa Joni on the phone about things and hearing her take care of her little girls (who will be like big sisters to you!) and wondering lots of things about myself and your daddy - it all welled up in my heart today. i want to have you little ones in my tummy and in my arms soon. i do know that i must be patient and that i must press on. two things we talked about at church today - and i'm learning to do that. but oh what a joy it would be to have you inside, knowing that you're going to grow and i'll feel you doing your first dance steps inside my tummy. knowing that one day soon i'll be able to take you into my arms and nestle you upon my breast and enjoy the bond of mother and child. oh i cannot even fathom what it will be like when you are here. if i love you this much now, can you imagine what it will be like when you're physically here? i am going to have to start training myself to not spoil you now. honestly, i don't think i will spoil you (i wasn't spoiled by your grandma and grandpa, so don't expect to be spoiled, at least not by me) but you will have all the love you will ever need.

your daddy and i hung out with your grandpa and grandma johnson today. it was a lot of fun! we had yummy lasagna and salad and garlic bread. these are all things i'm assuming you will truly enjoy one day!!! oh and we had cake and iced tea! it was very nice. then i looked at pictures of memaw and pawpaw's life before i was around and it was very interesting. there are a lot of people i wish i could have met that unfortunately i never got the chance too. it was neat to see pictures of my mommy around the same age as i am now! sadly she was much skinnier than i am, but i am slowly losing weight. you'd be so proud of me. but if you're in my tummy, i don't know how much weight i'll lose. hopefully i'll lose weight while still keeping you healthy and happy in there! who knows. anyway - after 5 or 6 books of pictures and taking a short nap with your daddy on the couch we came home and that was when i talked to MaMa Joni. she wrote a book and its going to be published! i will read it to you one day!!! woohoo! its all about your friend (kind of sister) hailey joy and her love for green beans. i hope one day you like green beans. i do! your daddy does not.

anyhow, i should go. i want to spend some special time with daddy before i go to sleep. so i will have to talk to you again some other time my lovelies. until next time - know that i'm loving you and thinking of you every day and am eager to meet you and get to know you!

love,
mommy.