i want to hold you.

hi my babies. its been a few days, but please know that i haven't gone a day without thinking of you or loving you. your daddy and i have been talking about you coming into our lives soon (we're hoping that day comes soon) and all the things we will be able to do with you while you're in my tummy. (and when you're not in my tummy anymore, of course! but let me focus on that part for a little bit) let me explain - in a very brief way. you come from the love of mommy and daddy and you end up in my tummy until the day you're supposed to have your birthday! when you come out of mommy's belly, thats considered your birthday! i'm sorry but you won't be getting cake or ice cream on your very first birthdays. maybe your 1 year birthday! you will be in mommy's tummy for nearly a year. its like your very own condo. you have everything you need. protection, food, a place to play, a place to dance! and i will make sure to make it as lovely for you as possible!

as you grow in my tummy, my tummy grows with you! you will no doubt one day learn about the constant battle women have with big tummy's and the dirty word - 'weight'. women don't like to be overweight. sadly - i am overweight, but i know you'll love me regardless! we're going to be best friends! but when theres a baby in a womans tummy, most women don't care how big they get! i know i won't. as long as you're healthy and i'm not putting either of us at risk, if you want to make me look like a beached whale, thats okay in my book. i can't wait to be able to feel you moving inside. the little flutters at first where you're just learning the butt wiggle. the more noticeable movements where you're learning the side to side groove. and then the big moves where you've learned the chacha, the salsa, the lindy hop and the cancan! wow, you will know more dance moves then me! you're so brilliant!!! i can't wait to meet you.

i hope you don't mind that while you're in my tummy, i plan on wearing shirts that are either geeky and fun or super cute. i have a feeling i'm going to love maternity clothes as i already do but have no reason to wear them. i'm not pregnant yet! but once you're in there, i plan on wearing fun clothes. but don't worry - when you're born, you will be wearing fun awesome clothes too! how's a ninja shirt or an iPood shirt sound? they have some super fun clothes for you out there and i'm going to get them all. well maybe not, but a good mix for sure. and you will also have a nice bed, a nice car seat, a nice stroller. maybe a few toys - but lets get one thing straight. you're not going to be spoiled with stuff. sorry. you'll be SUPER loved, you'll have a few THINGS, but your dad and i are minimalists. we get by with what we NEED and have very few extras. its just how we are. but - theres a lot of love in this family and when you get here, there will be even more!

well, i'm tired and i'm sure you can tell by reading this blog. i'm kind of all over the place. i'm not feeling very well and my head is a little foggy today. i better get to bed so i can go to work tomorrow and make money. whee. well, i love you my babies. you're more precious to me then you even know or will ever know i think. you're amazing and i love you. daddy loves you too. one day he'll write to you on here, hopefully one day soon. praying for you in more ways than one.

love,
mommy.