oh how much i am yearning to hold you in my arms. another few months have passed, and while i have not written in a while - it is not because i have not been thinking of you. i think about you every day. every day i look into the eyes of my nephews, every time i see pictures of babies on facebook, every time i see pregnancy test commercials on television, and every time i hear another birth announcement. the list goes on and on, hopefully you get the picture - i think of you everyday. i know i've mentioned it before, but i cannot believe how absolutely LOVED you are! not just by your silly barren mother, but by your daddy, your uncles and aunts, grandmas and grandpas, cousins, and your mommy and daddy's friends. how can someone who has not even been created yet be so loved? God is truly amazing. God is truly a wonderful God who has given you so much love!
lately i have been trying to get my body in the best shape that i can to welcome you into my tummy. hopefully i am doing a good job. i've lost a lot of weight! the doctors say that is a big part of becoming able to have a baby, so i'm doing what i can. when you meet me, i have no idea if i will be skinny, fat, or if i will be average. so one day, i hope to show you pictures from before you were welcomed into this world - pictures of how silly your mommy and daddy were. pictures of some of the ruckus we have caused and the silliness we have gotten into. please know, that as much as we love you, your daddy and i love each other just as much. we love each other so much and try our best to do the best we can for each other. sometimes life gets in the way and we don't get to share love to one another as best as we should and want to, but you can trust that no matter what, we love each other and are committed to each other until death do us part. i love your daddy. he is a handsome and amazing man.
i recently dyed my hair red! i think i may keep it this color for a while. we'll see what happens. :) what else... i'm going to school still, trying to become a little more educated and able to provide for you when you come.
please don't be shy little one. we are so ready for you, so excited to hold you in our arms, wanting to kiss and hug you. we love you. i love you, so very much. i will write again soon. thinking of you. longing to hold you and cradle you in my arms, against my breast, in my safe embrace. i love you.
love,
mommy
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