who are you? let the bets begin...

dear precious love,

i find myself singing to you and talking to you. each time i feel your flutter, each time my tummy feels more firm, every time i think of you - i talk to you. but i don't know WHO you are yet. i am getting increasingly more excited to find out who i am actually talking to every day, who i am stroking via tummy rubs, and who i am thinking about every day. i know that you are my child and i love you so much. i know that you are the work of the amazing hand of our Lord and Savior; i also know that you are the fruit of the love that your daddy and i share. i know that you are a precious jewel who has been thought of, prayed for, and loved for years - before you even became a reality. but i do not know what to call you, i do not know what to think. it is a very surreal place to be and i seem to be more and more anxious to hold you. i am 17 weeks pregnant this week... this means we are almost halfway to the day we get to meet face to face. oh my love, i am so excited to meet you. for now, i wait eagerly to know if i'm talking to my little gentleman or my little lady.

we love you so much, sweetie. no matter if you're a he or a she, you will be loved and cherished all the days of your life. cannot wait to meet you... cannot wait to find out if you're a lass or a lad. such exciting times are ahead... hooray! i love you my little one. we are going to have so many fun adventures... just you wait!

love,
mommy.

p.s. to any friends and family reading this - make your bets now!

daddy's day!

hello my little one,

it's that time of year again! father's day! today is the day that we celebrate the father's in our lives and let them know how blessed we are to have them in our lives. your mommy is blessed to have 3 special men in her life to acknowledge. i was blessed with a hard working, loving, and protective daddy. your pop-pop is awesome and he loves you so much already. every day he asks "how's flipper?" yes, he calls you flipper because you're currently swimming around in my tummy. :) he is going to spoil you and love on you so much!
he is very famous among your cousins and he will "wrastle" with you and eat your ears... be prepared for an amazing amount of fun!

then their is your grandpa burt - he is funny, loving, and raised your daddy - which means he must be pretty outstanding! he loves to go surfing, he plays the bass guitar in a band, collects and sells plants (they're AWESOME, as he would put it), and he always has things to do, and he will always remind you that he's gots to go! it is going to be so fun to see him as a grandpa! i'm very excited to see that.

and last but not least - we have your daddy. daddy is a God fearing man who loves to learn, loves to play, loves to enjoy life, loves to read, and loves to discuss important and even the not so important things. he is funny, beautiful inside and out, intelligent, well versed in the Word of God and theology/doctrinal things that are so important. he will spend so much time talking with you, praying with you, reading with you, playing with you, and introducing you to new and exciting things. he will take you to church and help you understand all the important things that you'll need and love to know about. also, i hope you are prepared to laugh at silly things, play lots of games, and read lots of comic books. don't worry, we have so many comic books that you will know all about things from "back then." you and your daddy are going to have so much fun. i married an amazing man who has taught me many things, been there for me through the hardest and most trying times, has loved me at my best and my worst, and has just been the best friend i could have ever asked for. you're in for an amazing life with this man as your dad. i cannot wait to see him grow as a man as he parents you and becomes even more wonderful. God has granted him with a brain and heart of gold and i am so lucky to call him my husband. you are blessed to call him daddy.

so that is my love to the men in my life who will also be a part of your life. you are surrounded by awesome people who will love you and give you all sorts of different life experience and love. i cannot wait for you to arrive and meet everyone who loves you. talk to you again soon my dear. i love you.

love,
mommy.

13 weeks my sweet!

hello little one! you are now 13 weeks old inside my tummy. yesterday i was so blessed to have heard your heartbeat... all 160 beats per minute of it! a bunch of people are already guessing that you are a girl. i'm not quite sure, but regardless, you are so loved and everyone is so excited for your arrival. daddy and i pray for you every night, he holds you (as best he can, considering you're so little and on the inside), he kisses you, he tells you he loves you. he is excited to meet you. your pop pop and grandma johnson are so excited to meet you and call you flipper! grandma mo and grandpa burt (or whatever you feel like calling them!) love you and cannot wait to meet you! your aunties and uncles check in on you all the time and wonder how you're doing - as they are excited to see you and get to know you. you are so loved. you are so wanted.


i feel like i felt you moving today at around 11am this morning. i felt a quiver in my tummy on one side - a kind of shake. were you doing a dance? were you jumping up and down and getting used to those developing muscles and joints and all that amazing stuff? perhaps your heartbeat is so fast because you're dancing around or making music. i can't wait to feel you again, i can't wait to see your little feet and hands and body moving around and getting stronger and bigger over the next 6 months. only 6 months until i get to hold you and kiss you! soon i think you'll be hearing my voice, my heart, and others around. i cannot wait to sit and sing to you, both when you're still in my tummy and when i'm holding you in my arms. singing is mommy's most favorite thing to do and hopefully you will sing with me one day. or play the drums and guitar like daddy. oh whatever you do, you will be brilliant.

oh precious one. i love you so much! 6 months. see you in a little while...

love,
mommy.