doctors and cousins!

hello my beloved sweethearts,

today, mommy is not feeling well. she and daddy have been sick for the past few days. i'll be going to the doctor tomorrow to see if they think i should be put on some medicine that will make me feel better. we have a trip to go see your auntie julie get married, so we need to be in tip top shape! anyway, i'll be going to see my doctor. one day, you will get the privilege to meet mommy's favorite doctor. her name is dr. patricia jett and she has been your mommy's doctor since she was 14 years old. she has seen me through a lot, been there for me, and helped me a lot. she listens and truly cares! and she wants to meet you too! didn't think you had a doctor friend, did you!

today your cousins and i had a day of relaxation. since i'm not feeling well, we lounged around, played with play-doh (you'll love the stuff!) and made oobleck! you'll love that even more! i wish i had gotten pictures of the oobleck, but another day. i can't wait to try all these fun little things with you and experience it with you. i know that carter will be so eager to teach you new things. he will love to meet you and hold you and teach you all sorts of fun stuff! and by the time you're here, evan will want to teach you things too. he will most likely tell you what is good to eat, how to jump for hours in a jumper, and how to make people bend over backwards with your cuteness. they will teach you all sorts of fun things!

lately, i've been feeling a tiny bit more confident about you coming into my life. there are days that i feel hopeless, as if you'll never make your way into my life. and other days, i'm bursting with joy and hope that you'll come and bless my life with your life. i hope i can hold on to this confidence. i think because i have a plan set in stone, one that i feel i can really follow, something that gives me a goal to achieve - i feel like i'm going to get closer to that joyous day where a weird little magic stick says that your mommy is pregnant and you are in her tummy! hopefully one day!

well, that is all for now. i love you and i can't wait to meet you. one day...

love,
mommy.

you're cute.

hi sweet little ones. mommy and daddy love you. i'm listening to a man sing and thinking about how music is such a doorway to ones heart. there are so many times that i sing and you are at the forefront of my mind. there are so many times when i sing to your cousins and can't wait till i can sing to all of you at once. you see, most likely when you come into the world, we'll spend a lot of time with your cousins, carter and evan. it will be super fun and i know that the boys will want to teach you and love on you, almost as much as i want to. so you have so much to look forward to, sweet ones. lots of people who love you already. its amazing how loved you already are. incredible, really.

the past few days, daddy and i have been drinking juice. juice that will help us to be healthier and more prepared for when you come into our lives. i'm hoping that this is going to help mommy's body so she can carry you inside her. we'll see though. its truly up to the Lord and what he wants to happen. but - i've said it once, i'll say it again. regardless if i carry you in my tummy or if i come and get you from a different part of the world, you will be mine. and nothing will change that. and you will be loved more than you can even imagine.

well, its time for mommy to go to sleep. goodnight sweet angels.

love,
mommy

mommy and daddy love you. <3