a few weeks ago, mommy and daddy celebrated their 4 year anniversary of being married! that means that mommy and daddy have been married for almost as many years as there are fingers on one hand! its pretty exciting! we love each other more and more each day, so i hope you know that no matter what, you will always be loved and have parents who love each other. we have our spats, don't let me fool you. there are days where we are not always nice people... but no matter what, we love each other and we love you, and will for the rest of our lives. you will never lack in the love department. but if you ever feel left out, if you ever feel like you need a little extra love and care, please know that i'm always there to hold you, hug you, kiss you, pray with you. it will never be a problem for me to stop what i am doing and give you some extra affection... in fact, i'm sure there will be days where you want me to back off and i'll cringe a little. but i'll understand. i promise. (thankfully, thats not for a long time!) love is an important part of life and you will be surrounded by it! if not by mommy and daddy, then by your grandparents, your aunts and uncles, your cousins, your friends, your church family. you will be so well loved and cared for, i don't think you'll know what to do with yourself.
the weekend after mommy and daddy celebrated being married, we went to our home church and became members. it was a big step as becoming a member to a church means you are connected to them. just like a family. spiritually, you have people who are there to make sure you're okay, to make sure you're living right and stuff. the big word for that is "accountability". so now we have true accountability from a church family. we also are considered part of their family and can help them and look out for them too! its awesome. whenever God decides to bless us with your lovely self, we will get you baptized. we so look forward to having you baptized, having you dedicated and prayed over. it will be a very beautiful day.
is it okay to tell you that sometimes, your mommy gets jealous? there are a lot of people around her who have either already had a child and are on their second one, who didn't want children right now and are having them, and sometimes random strangers walk by who have babies in their bellies or in their arms and my heart longs to be with you. but God is teaching mommy true reliance on Him and is teaching me that, if i don't get to have you in my arms any time soon or in my tummy... that i will be okay, regardless. and i am learning that daddy has to be enough for me... and its a hard thing for mommy to learn. but... i'm learning. and i'm trusting. and i'm seeing that jealousy is slowly going away. :) these things i tell you, about church family, about God showing us things, about love, about having accountability and living right... these are all things shown to us by the God that we serve. and i cannot wait to tell you about Him. He is wonderful and glorious!
until next time...
i love you,
mommy.
